Monday, December 28, 2009
Wii
OK enough typing...time to kick some Wii butt!
Monday, December 7, 2009
My Guardian Angel
My other grandfather died when I was four, so I don't remember much about him other than what I see in pictures. Because of this, I was always very close with my living Grampa. During the summers and when I was home from school, I would visit him and Nana at least once a week. After he died, it took me a while to accept the fact that he was really gone but I would dream about him multiple times during the week, always very vividly like he had never left us. It wasn't until I visited his grave on the six-month anniversary of his death that the constant dreams stopped. That is until last night.
I was standing in an empty white room with Nana when out of nowhere Grampa appeared. Nana started to cry because she couldn't believe it was really him. I could only smile because I knew it was really him. He told us he was doing great and feeling no pain at all. I couldn't remember the last time I saw him with such a huge grin on his face. He then sandwiched my hand between both of his and told me that I need to stop worrying because everything was going to be OK. Grampa then focused on Nana, said the same thing to her, and that she will be fine without him. He said "I love you" right before I awoke to the falling Christmas lights I strung above my bed.
I have always had a strong religious faith and part of that has been my belief in angels. I truly think that everyone has at least one person up in Heaven watching out for them. Now, for those of you who are skeptical, you might say I had this dream because I happened to watch It's A Wonderful Life last night. However, given the "eerie" things that occurred while Grampa was in hospice and also the night he died, I tend to believe that it was really him as my guardian angel showing up in my dream. Lately I have been stressed and upset at the fact that I still cannot find a job and I think Grampa came to reassure me that, like he said, everything will be OK. What really got me in all of this, was that he held my hand. That was something he had never done in all of the times I can remember spending with him, except for the last day I saw him alive. On that day, I told him I was leaving for a few hours but I would be back to visit and he grabbed my hand and said, "Good, I would really like that." Those were the last words he really said to me because when I did return a few hours later, he was in and out of sleep and due to pain medications he didn't make much sense when he tried to talk.
Nana, on the other hand, has been worried about doing things around the house without him, paying bills on time, and just basic living life on her own. Like he said to me in the dream, he told her that everything will be fine. Today, while I was at Nana's house and she received a check in the mail for some sort of insurance reimbursement that Grampa had always filled out and sent in. Nana of course had to do it herself this time, and she got $400 more than she thought she was going to get. Is that supposed to be a sign that she is going well on her own and can handle it? Yes, I think so.
People can believe what they want to believe, but if Grampa told me things are going to be OK (whether in a dream or not) I have to trust him.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
What a difference 5 years makes...
Last night, I went out in Massachusetts with my 27-year-old sister and her boyfriend and his friends who all fall between the ages of 30 and 40. We met them at a small sports bar to watch the second half of the Penn State-Michigan football game. This time around, we arrived at 5 p.m. Once the Nittany Lions sealed the deal, we moved on to another local dive bar which served the cheapest drinks I have ever seen ($2 for a beer and $2.75 for a martini--I'M SOLD!). It felt like it was 11 p.m., yet when I looked up, Alex Trebek's hairless face was staring back at me on the television screen. Yup, it was only 7:45 and Jeopardy was still on. A few martinis later, our group started dwindling. One guy--dare I say man--had to go home to his wife and three children, one couple went home because they were tired, and another guy had to go home because he had to attend church this morning. The four of us lone survivors left and went to one more bar. We decided the McDonald's drive thru sounded like a much better way to end the night so we hopped back into the car after one drink. I was sound asleep by 11:45 p.m. on a Saturday night. I don't think that has happened since I had mono two years ago and slept for 22 of the 24 hours in a day.
Both nights were equally as fun, but I couldn't help thinking about the differences between them. Us 22-year-olds who are fresh out of college and still not wanting to admit we are getting older, don't realize that in just a few short years our lives will be so different from where we are now. Something tells me that my Saturday night festivities will be more like last night's, sooner than I think. And I'm pretty sure I am okay with that.
Friday, November 13, 2009
Better Days, Better Things
I was never a big fan of One Tree Hill since my local cable company decided to take the station away from us right as the show moved its way up the ratings ladder. Once in a while my college roommates would turn it on in the dorm, but frankly all I could focus on was how grown up Chuckie Lee from Disney Channel's The Torkelsons (anyone else remember that show?!) had become. For those of you who don't remember, he also played Minkus on Boy Meets World. Regardless, I came across this quote today and decided that I agree with it full-heartily.
Not a day goes by where I don't think of the future. What company will I be working for in two years? What city will I be living in? Will I be spending my time with someone special or just continue to have a solid group of great friends? How will I have changed? There are thousands of questions I could ask about the future, but why do I concern myself with these when I should just be living day to day? I am trying my best to plan for what I think the future holds, but maybe it is out of my hands. What I do know, is that better things are on the way. It may not be exactly what I think I want, but it will hopefully be better than what I am doing now.
Of course everyone has their problems. We all go through our fair share of trials and tribulations, but I think people need to put more faith into believing that when things go wrong, better things are on the way. One door closes, and another one opens. At 22, I have my entire life to live. Yes, that scares the hell out of me in more ways than one, but how can I sit here and not believe that my life can only get better? My life is just beginning and the best is yet to come.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Just when things were looking up...
Saturday, October 3, 2009
The Concrete Jungle
There's nothing you can't do, now you're in New York
These streets will make you feel brand new,
Big lights will inspire you, let's hear it for New York
New York, New York" --Jay-Z's Empire State of Mind
The words would make any New Yorker proud to live where they do. To me, a Rhode Islander (trying feel brand new on the streets of the Big Apple), these lyrics give me hope.
While furiously applying to job after job, I continue to dream about the day I walk six blocks home in 3-inch stiletto heels to my small studio apartment on the Upper East Side, after a long day of interviewing and writing copy about the latest Brangelina scandal. In my dreams, the first thing I do when I get home is kick off my shoes (and by that I mean put them back in their exact spot in the closet since I tend to be a neat freak), check my e-mail because I left work 45 minutes ago and surely I have unread messages, and finally I raid my fridge and see what I can whip up for a so-called dinner. In a perfect world, I would try to fit a good hour of cardio workout in there at the gym, but for now I'm still dreaming. After dinner is when I sit down in front of my laptop and try to bang out a few more chapters of the trashy romance novel that I write in my spare time. In an even MORE perfect dream, my tall, attractive, and witty boyfriend would knock on my door and surprise me just as I am writing the last sentence to end the chapter. But reality sets in and I am still currently in my small town in RI and not in the "concrete jungle where dreams are made of."
However, Jay-Z along with a little help from Alicia Keyes, tell me that there's nothing I can't do while in New York. So for now, I will continue to let the big lights inspire me and my dreams, but you better believe that I will have a jumbo size bottle of Ambien ready for the day I get called to the city that never sleeps.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Still need more Kanye?
Friday, August 14, 2009
Time to start working!
So I have a basic plot. All that is left to do is come up with names, minor details, and start writing! Oh yeah and then go through the process of getting an agent and actually publishing this thing. Hopefully all will go well! Now, it's time to get down to business...
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Rejection
Good news is that it just gives me more time to play with my new iPhone :)
Friday, July 24, 2009
Did I really graduate?
In between spending time at Rhody's finest beaches and visiting friends and family, I look to see what is available in the world of journalism. My conclusions: not a whole lot. I apply for jobs when they come across, but for now, I am taking advantage of my time off. With 40 plus years of working ahead of me (oh boy!), I think I can spare a few months.
Monday, May 4, 2009
All Natural Suds
“You know, work is work,” she said, “but I can come home and work down in the soapary for hours. It helps me clear my head.”
Santoro, 54, only uses all natural substances in her soaps so there is nothing to strip the skin. She said that when commercial soaps are made, the makers skim the top for the glycerin that forms because it is a profitable byproduct. They then add extra chemicals, such as parabins, sodium laural sulfates, and phthalates that are not good for the human skin. There has been much debate over phthalates health risks, and scientists have found that women’s exposure to them can cause birth defects of their male fetuses. In most antibacterial soaps is a chemical called triclosan, which is known to cause cancer. The skin will start to absorb the harsh chemicals due to constant use of the commercial soaps.
Instead of skimming off the glycerin, Santoro keeps it in her soaps because it is part of the cleaning power of soap. She said oils bind to oils, so the oil from the glycerin sticks to the oils on the skin to pull them off. Therefore, the skin is left feeling smooth, moisturized, and clean.
“I couldn’t use a regular bar of soap if you paid me,” said Santoro. She is extremely careful to not use any harmful preservatives when making her soaps. Some of main ingredients used at Soapworks are soybean, castor, olive, hemp, palm (she makes sure it’s not trees from the rainforest), coconut, Shea butter, and grape seed. Santoro also adds a lot of fresh herbs and flowers for extra exfoliation and fragrance.
She first started playing around with soap making when her sister passed away in 2000. It was her way of diverting herself from the situation. None of the commercial soaps had what Santoro was looking for so she went online and found a recipe to make her own. With a few changes here and there, she now is an expert at the craft and can make 500 pounds of natural soap in just two days.
Santoro starts with either a goat milk base or a coconut milk base and mixes it with oils. In order for them to “marry”, as she calls it, she pours in sodium hydroxide and lye to cause the chemical reaction of burning the sulfate, which combines the oil and milk. Essential oils and fragrances are added and the mixture is poured into soap logs where they sit for a few days. Santoro then hand cuts the logs into 5.5 ounce bars and they have to sit for three weeks before they can be put on the shelves.
One of her newest recipes is the Egg-Head Shampoo bar, made with beer and eggs. “I have always wanted to try beer in my soaps because in the 1970s it was all the rage to wash your hair with beer because it adds body and shine,” Santoro said. She bought Atlantic Amber beer and let it go flat. She used it as a base and added eggs, tea-tree oil, and geranium oil.
For all of the vegans in the world, there is even a line of soaps out there for you. Santoro uses a base of coconut milk for those soaps because a lot of people don’t want anything with animal products. The top-selling vegan soap is “Happy Hippie Treehugger” which is scented with, as she puts it, “the most popular scent of the sixties” and green tea.
In order to have her soaps be considered certified organic, she would have to go through a long three year process, so for now she is sticking to the naturally grown ingredients. The National Organic Program has strict rules for the process of becoming certified organic and how to go about apply for certification. Businesses must submit the type of operation they are running, a history of substances that have been applied to the land in the past three years, the products being grown or processed, and an organic system plan. Once the company is certified, annual inspections are performed by the United States Department of Agriculture.
By choosing to stay all natural, final products made only from botanical resources, Santoro can sell her products at a cheaper price. Certified organic soaps can range anywhere from a hefty $8-$10 a bar. Inside the small shed at Sunflower Farm where she has set up shop, she sells her soap for just $3.50 a bar or three bars for $10.
“Business has been good. My prices are good, it’s natural items, and people like my stuff,” Santoro said. “We’ll really see an increase in sales when the famers markets open.”
If you are interested in Santoro’s products, her shop is located at 767 Derby Milford Rd. Orange, Conn. or you can visit her website www.sunflowerfarm.com.
Photos courtesy of http://www.sunflowerfarm.com/
Women Veterans: "We Can Do It!"
Among the 105 people who made up the unit was a pale skinned soldier with light blue eyes and cropped dark hair. Master Sgt. Jacqueline Milhomme, then 36, was only one of 13 women soldiers in her battalion.
It is stereotypically thought that the military is for men. Some people may not think that women are strong enough, whether emotionally or physically, to fight in a war. Historically, in most of the past wars, women were nurses in the armed forces and not actually on the front line. The turning point came in the Persian Gulf War where nine percent of the recruits were female.
While Milhomme, now 42, was with only a handful of other women in her company, she said there were no stereotypes within the group. “There were times where we showed the men up and there was nothing they could say because they knew we were tough,” she said. Even going as far to say that the males in her unit were all like fathers and brothers to her, Milhomme said she “would go back with them in a heartbeat if I could.”
In 1973, there were 55,000 women serving in the active duty military. That was only 2.5 percent of the entire armed forces. As of 2005, there were more than 202,000 women in the active duty, which was 14 percent of the armed forces. This figure almost quadrupled the previous statistic.
Milhomme received the news in 2003 that she was being deployed. “I had mixed feelings of nervousness and anxiousness. I had no idea what I was getting into,” Milhomme said. Her unit was told they were going to Southeast Asia, but did not know where they were going after that. The 143rd Military Police Company ended up being the first National Guard unit in the nation to enter Iraq.
“We had to put our normal life on hold and wonder every day if we were ever going to come back alive,” she said. At the time of her deployment, she was told she would be overseas for six months, which later turned into one full year.
The scene in Iraq was one that will be imprinted into Milhomme’s mind for the rest of her life. In between the large palm trees and telephone poles lining the dirt covered roads were multiple banged up cars, some of which had been burned to a crisp by bombs. The pictures she has from the war show rocks strewn across the puddles of mud surrounded by all sorts of debris. She even has one picture of a fellow soldier in her unit standing in about a 15-by-10 foot trench dressed in his camouflage uniform, clutching his rifle at his side.
Milhomme served her year long tour of duty but, like many other soldiers, now suffers from post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). Those who are diagnosed with this disorder have vivid disturbing memories of a traumatic or life threatening experience they have gone through. Often they have trouble sleeping, get scared easily, and do not enjoy the same things they used to.
In a study compiled by Ilona Meagher, editor of “PTSD Combat: Winning the War Within,” found that about 3,800 women veterans suffer from the disorder. Many veterans are diagnosed with PTSD because of what they witness in combat, whether it is watching a friend get killed, or being sexually abused by another soldier. In Milhomme’s case it was a combination of the loud bombings she heard and the horrific shootings she watched while in the military and as a result she was medically discharged in 2007 because she “couldn’t function anymore.”
She described the transition back to states as a hard change. She said the first few days home were filled with excitement, but then reality set in. Milhomme’s friends and family did not change in the year she was away, but she had been exposed to the bloodshed of war. She spent eight weeks in the hospital getting treated for PTSD and she continues to see counselors at the Veteran’s Center in Rocky Hill, Conn.
“It’s a tough adjustment. I still stay in the middle lane on the highway, I don’t look over bridges, and I’m still afraid of getting blown up when there’s a loud noise,” Milhomme said. “I still don’t go into crowds. I used to love shopping, but you won’t find me in a mall now.” She said she used to run seven miles a day, but her passion for running is gone now due to PTSD. It also cost her job in December 2008 after 22 years working as a parts attendant, ordering different parts for cars as they broke down.
Joining the Army National Guard in 1984, Milhomme did it as a means of paying for school. She wanted to attend college and if she signed up with the Guard, they would pay for her education. When Milhomme began boot camp the following year, the military was still segregated. There were 300 women who went through extensive physical training with her. She said they also learned basic Army skills like how to read a map, how to fire a rifle, combat life saving skills, and emergency skills.
While nowadays she tries to do different women’s things with other veteran’s when she can, Milhomme’s life now revolves around her 17-year-old niece who went to live with her in Broad Brook, Conn. three months ago. She said she would love to go back to Rocky Hill to help other veterans, but she is not sure she is able to. Milhomme now joins the other 15,353 women veterans in Connecticut.
Women Veterans Around New England (as of 10/08):
- Massachusetts--26,818
- Connecticut--15,353
- Maine--10,132
- New Hampshire--8,741
- Rhode Island--5,094
- Vermont--3,710
Photos courtesy of Jacqueline Milhomme
Monday, March 16, 2009
10 Steps to Giving Yourself a Great Manicure
1. Wash hands with soap and warm water and dry completely. The polish sticks to clean nails better.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
I learned it from watching you!
Saturday, February 28, 2009
I'll have that hamburger...along with the 87 grams of fat
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
The First Pooch..Obamas finally choose!
Photo courtesy of www.puppydogweb.com
Monday, February 23, 2009
Q&A With Study Abroad Student
Jackie: When looking at my choices for study abroad destinations, one thing sat at the top of my list: where can I be fully immersed in an environment where the hospitality industry is highly distinguished? Australia, known for its tourism, naturally became my first choice. I have always loved to travel and I was eager to study in an environment where I felt most comfortable, while still providing a refreshing experience in a new country.
Program Costs: Tuition - $12000; Room and Board - $5000.
Airfare/Transportation: Airfare - $2100 (roundtrip Boston/Australia). Plan on additional airfare for traveling around Australia and outside countries (i.e. Fiji and New Zealand) - $2000.
Spending Money: $8000 (including extra traveling expenses, food, etc).
Additional Expenses: Internet - $100; Visa - $350; Passport - $100.
How is Australia different than the U.S.?
Would you go back to Australia? Why/why not?
Do you have the desire to travel to any other countries? Which ones?
What would you say to other students who are looking to travel abroad?
When you are feeling down...
Well, go on to Fmylife.com and write about it. This is a website where people can go and tell the world their embarrassing moments. Whether you are having a bad day and want to tell everyone, or simply just want to read other people's stories to make yours seem less worse, you can. I find myself stumbling across this quite often to laugh at quick blurbs posted. Who knows, maybe even some of you can relate to them.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
That must have hurt
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Where is my magic 8 ball when I need it...
A lot of my friends have their future (at least for the next 2 years) planned out, but I have to graduate in three months and have no idea what I am going to do. I know everyone goes through this at some point in their life, but it's one of those things that always makes you feel like you're the only one going through it. Don't get me wrong, I know what I eventually want to do, or I think I do anyway, but where do I begin? And what if I just spent all of this money going to school, get my first job, and absolutely hate it? I just wish I had a Magic 8 ball to tell me what my future will be. Or at least to tell me where to start!
Monday, February 16, 2009
Time Flies in College
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Stoned 7-year-old?
In his defense, the father claimed that he just wanted to ease his son's tension of doctors. He also said he wanted to tape him because it was just so funny. Later that night David and his mom were shown the video and they too, believed it to be hilarious.
So why the controversy? I don't see anything wrong with the video. This was simply just a father putting up a funny video of his son. And his son was not high because he actually smoked pot or did any other kinds of drugs, it was just from the anesthesia. He was not promoting anything in a negative light by posting the video. I think that there are a lot more clips on youtube that people can be more concerned about than this one.
Monday, February 9, 2009
Chris Brown: he wears wifebeaters..now he is one?
It seems to the outside world that this couple was always happy. Both artists are known for their catchy R&B songs, their good looks, and great dance skills. It's hard to believe that one of them could just crack and actually physically hurt the other. What makes me wonder even further is what could hollywood couples possibly fight about?
Maybe she was telling him what he should wear for the Grammys that night and he didn't like the outfit. Or they got in a fight because she was nominated for more awards than he. Or perhaps they were arguing over who made more money?
When you live the "good life" as a celebrity, what kinds of things do you argue about with your significant other? And what would ever lead Chris Brown to punch and bite his girlfriend?
http://www.people.com/people/article/0,,20257828,00.html
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/29106475/
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Where does TLC find these people?
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
How long until spring break?
These small snow storms are starting to get to me. Last week, my friends and I finally booked our spring break trip to South Beach. Now I am going to be daydreaming for the next month about how gorgeous the weather will be, all while looking outside the window and seeing nothing but 5 inches of snow on the ground.
The other unfortunate part about going on spring break in early March is that when we come home, there is STILL usually snow on the ground. I have come home in the past years during an actual snow storm, when I had just spend a week's worth of time in the 85 degree weather. The last thing I want to go through when I come home is more snow. Hopefully this year will be different and maybe if I'm lucky, when I get back on the 14th, it will be at least in the upper 50's. Something tells me, that is a lot to ask for.
For the time being, I will just keep staring at pictures of Miami and think about fun in the sun.